Nice hearing from you again Rubicon.  Glad to see that your life has become a better place for you. 

You may like Kant.  Can't take everything he says as "Gospel"  but he has a nice rationale.  Anxiety is the real student of Philosophy. 

You may find that looking at theology from the eyes of a philosopher opens new dimensions and questions. If we did not take the writings as being "holy" could they then be philosophical views?  Since they are stories told with the purpose of trying to solve or identify a characteristic or thought in that time period. The ancient philosophers taught through stories so that the masses could understand them, yet the lesson would be relevant years later. 

Apologetics is similar to those students of a particular philosopher. They are trying to defend a thought or philosophy even if it doesn't answer a situation properly.  If we are honest with ourselves, then we would admit that no one has ever come up with a philosophy that answered everything adequately.  If we did then the science would cease to exist.   We as a species tend to hold onto that which we agree with and attack that which would make us question our own thoughts. As you know 75% of humans will resist change no matter what.  It is who we are and it takes a "breaking of Belief" to move forward and accept a new thought.  Doesn't always mean that the new thought is correct, just that we as a species have grown to understand and accept other thoughts as possibly valid. We can then enjoy what we have learned in a new light and reflect on how we lived before under a different thought.  Comparison of ideas - sometimes not a bad thing, if taken with a little 'salt' and not as the new 'correctness'. 

Enjoy your studies and your peacefulness.  Look forward to talking with you again. 

Of course you would fall out of love for Kant.  He doesn't answer everything, nor is he neat or tidy. But can you take a piece of his thoughts and use them in an overall diagnosis of the world's conditions as he knew them and as you find relevant today?  What about the other great philosophers, can not one or two thoughts from each fit into a situation or understanding of the human race?  I contend that we need many different thoughts and experiences to flourish.  It is when we try and solve the need to flourish with only one thought that we become disillusioned.  What if you could assemble a reference book with one or more thoughts from each philosopher that you felt pertinent to life?  That would solve the problem of nuances and allow for you to "love" the overall process of philosophy without discovering that each philosopher's thoughts were inherently flawed.  You would have a "bible"  of naturalistic terms and idioms to flourish by.  Like the real bible it would have an overall theme of life's processes to live by and also many conflicts between the different authors.  It is when we stop looking for the nuances and accepting that we as a species change and discover new ideas that this book too will be considered "holy" not as a tool to help us flourish in our relationships.

Not only do I like your answer. I agree with your analysis.